Hey all, my maxis gonna expired liao…not gonne reload or use it anymore so u guys can DELETE my malaysia maxis 012-916 5962 and ADD my UK o2: 0789 525 1142 for ppl in malaysia ADD: +44789 525 1142 untill further notice if i happen to get another number or change number ya~? 
muaks~
love, Rebecca
I know it’s been a while since my last entry but I have been really occupied and sometimes too much to write makes me lazy to write.
I just got back from cf mooncake festival nite. Actually extremely tired right now coz had so many class today sumore went to cf. However, there’s something I’ve done whether out of intention or my own weakness kept me awake and drowning with guilt. Oh God, pls forgive me…
I over used my energy today and by the end of the cf i’m terribly exhausted. Being weak in that condition, i let my mouth slipped. I said something which i terribly regreted. It happen really fast and I dun even know i’m doing it…it just seem so natural…yes, i’m born with a talent to be mean, i have the tongue of a snake. I have been using it since a long time ago, for a very long time as effective as a snap of a finger.
Those who knows me since way back knows it and know that i have changed a lot since I really become a christian. God changed me and help me to refrain my tongue most of the time. He gave me the ability to be nice…however, as bad habits hard to kill, smokers hard to quit, my tongue hard to be tame. I want to be a good person but occasional situations like just now…out of my control…makes me feel like i’m a sheep with the tongue of a snake…I’m really felt bad for what happen and terribly sorry. I felt so self-centered…i’m sorry. I hope tat person won’t feel too bad about it. O Lord, please forgive me…also, for those who find me sometimes with bad mood swings or find me fake or watever…i’m sorry to make u feel like tat…do know that i intend to let God change me to become a better person. I’m really really doing my best to tame my tongue.
A tip to avoid such situations is not to talk at all, my close friends all knows my weakness and know when to stay away and sometimes i even tell them i’m sorry first when i’m in a bad mood just in case things like tat happens. I’m nt trying to run away from being responsible for wat i said, it’s just tat i just don’t want u all to get hurt by my negligent and unintentional used of words.
And that’s…little something about me…
Today is 10th of September; I took a very big step towards my future. Finally, I departed from KLIA to my new home in Newcastle. I’m now in Amsterdam, writing this while waiting for the transit to Newcastle.
Many have asked how I felt leaving Malaysia, leaving home, leaving family and friends, leaving things that is so familiar and so close to me. I felt heavy hearted and yet excited at the same time. I believe this day is pre-planned by my Master for it is perfect. Perfect all the way from before the departure and I believe it will be perfect even after I arrive. I knew and realize this when I was in the plane departing from KLIA. It was 11pm, near midnight flight. Seldom had I taken a plane at night but this journey I believe is one of the most beautiful journeys one can ever experience.
I took my window seat and gave thanks to God for it, not knowing the how much value that seat cost. I found out it was one of the best view one can ever get. The plane flew off the runway into the night sky. I looked out my window and what I saw just took my breath away. I was a picture nicely framed at my window, a beautiful picture of the night view of Malaysia with completion of stars and the moon itself. The night was so clear…so perfect. As I stared in awe, I thought of the creator of all these. He’s just so amazing and just…so awesome.
And now, (supposedly when I started writing this but I never get to finish coz have to board the plane to Newcastle; now I’m in my room in Newcastle finishing it) I’m witnessing a beautiful sunrise in Amsterdam as I’m sitting here writing this. I’m in the second flooring (Malaysia we call it first floor, I wonder why) and the building is built with transparent materials so the sun is directly on my right, extending its first rays on me. The sun looks very big and orange too. Hurts my eyes when I try to look directly at it…sad =(
Finally on Monday, 11th September noon about 11am I arrived safely, in one piece in Newcastle. When I got out of the airport, wow, I just couldn’t believe that I’m finally here. I have been waiting like the whole year since the beginning of this year to set my foot in Newcastle. I was like jumping and hopping around happily and out of the excitement I accidentally shouted “woohoo~!” too loudly until people starts to look at me…aiks *^-^*
It’s just great to finally be here and looking forward to much more to come. I’m halfway settle down in my room and roughly know my way about town. Early today I admit I had a little homesick but I’m fine now. I just miss home…miss all of u guys lo…until get sick some more ;p
Well, that’s about it…thanks to all of u guys who prayed for me. I’m now safe and sound and happily here. My dad’s gonna come visit me this Saturday too. However still until I really make my home here my heart will still be missing u guys very, very much.
lots of luv, becky
Is it true that women can only love one person at a time but men can love more then one at a time?
How true is this concept if God is fair and just who created everything perfect and should men and women are equal in love? The bible said ‘husband, love your wife’, it is singular, not wives and note that vice versa is not stated but only to ask women submit to their husband. In our modern but distorted world today, men tend to love more than one. One might think that the weaker gender, the women, generally still finds it difficult to apart from loving more than one. Until men is married and has a wife, and then to love their wife, is it fair for them, if they are in a relationship before marriage to love more than one at a time? Isn’t it easy for them to argue that it was stated to love your wife, not your girlfriend or even your fiancé?
I believe all these are just excuses. Ironic it is that women are not commanded to love their husband but only to submit. If women can love a partner deeply in a relationship regardless whether that person is her husband or not how much more should men to love their partner more as it was commanded? Then, since women are not asked to love their husband but just to submit, then can they love other men other then their husband as well?
I believe true love is equal, where one love another and receives the same amount of love in return. Readers, note that the type of love I am referring throughout this entry is love between men and women if you still have not realized it. Anyway, in the beginning of relationships where there are only either one situations. The first situation is where guy fell in love with the girl which I will refer it as the guy choose the girl then the other way round, where the girl choose the guy.
More often than not, the person who chooses who to love and later, gets the person he/she chooses will love more than the other person whom is chosen to be love. However, I’m not ruling out that the person chosen may at times love more than the other. This is just from general observation. Love is immeasurable, yes I agree but I believe can be compared by evidences of showing love, sacrifices, time spending and appreciation. The person who is chosen, sometimes will find it hard to love him/her back and will later find themselves trying to learn how to love their partner. It is not impossible but rare to find both parties to love each other as much. It’s usually one sided weighted. If it is this case, which will you choose?
From experiences, to be the one who love more than love receives is always the person who bares more burden (hurt and disappointment). In the other hand, to be the one who love less than the other is usually feel more carefree but will at times will feel that there is less satisfaction in that relationship as he/she might think that they had not really deeply loved someone. And later after that will find excuses to leave their partner. Contrastingly, the person who loves more in the relationship will in the end find more satisfied because they can tell themselves that they had really loved before.
For me, when I’m at one side higher of the seesaw I had always wished I’ll be on the other lower side and later, when I’m at the bottom, I’ll wish I’ll be on top. If you can only choose to be on one side, which will you choose? To be the one who give out love more and receives less or to love less and receive more? Bottom line: to love or be loved? A little extra advice (given by Lydia) for people who choose to love is that at times you will find yourself very lonely. I’m so agree with this because it is so very true and i believe i’m suffering from it…
