I felt like i’m a sheep with the tongue of a snake…
I know it’s been a while since my last entry but I have been really occupied and sometimes too much to write makes me lazy to write.
I just got back from cf mooncake festival nite. Actually extremely tired right now coz had so many class today sumore went to cf. However, there’s something I’ve done whether out of intention or my own weakness kept me awake and drowning with guilt. Oh God, pls forgive me…
I over used my energy today and by the end of the cf i’m terribly exhausted. Being weak in that condition, i let my mouth slipped. I said something which i terribly regreted. It happen really fast and I dun even know i’m doing it…it just seem so natural…yes, i’m born with a talent to be mean, i have the tongue of a snake. I have been using it since a long time ago, for a very long time as effective as a snap of a finger.
Those who knows me since way back knows it and know that i have changed a lot since I really become a christian. God changed me and help me to refrain my tongue most of the time. He gave me the ability to be nice…however, as bad habits hard to kill, smokers hard to quit, my tongue hard to be tame. I want to be a good person but occasional situations like just now…out of my control…makes me feel like i’m a sheep with the tongue of a snake…I’m really felt bad for what happen and terribly sorry. I felt so self-centered…i’m sorry. I hope tat person won’t feel too bad about it. O Lord, please forgive me…also, for those who find me sometimes with bad mood swings or find me fake or watever…i’m sorry to make u feel like tat…do know that i intend to let God change me to become a better person. I’m really really doing my best to tame my tongue.
A tip to avoid such situations is not to talk at all, my close friends all knows my weakness and know when to stay away and sometimes i even tell them i’m sorry first when i’m in a bad mood just in case things like tat happens. I’m nt trying to run away from being responsible for wat i said, it’s just tat i just don’t want u all to get hurt by my negligent and unintentional used of words.
And that’s…little something about me…
for those who knew me personally well have seen the days where I will hiss at them and say what comes first to my mind without a second thought of refraining from it.