Rikku’s Fantasy~

Lately, this is exactly how i feel:-

I need time (time)
Love (love)
Joy (joy)
I need space
I need me
(Action!)

Say hello to the girl that I am!
You’re gonna have to see through my perspective
I need to make mistakes just to learn who I am
And I don’t wanna be so damn protected
There must be another way
Cause I believe in taking chances
But who am I to say
What a girl is to do
God, I need some answers

What am I to do with my life
(You will find it out don’t worry)
How Am I supposed to know what’s right?
(You just got to do it your way)
I can’t help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

I tell ‘em what I like
What I want
What I don’t
But every time I do I stand corrected
Things that I’ve been told
I can’t believe what I hear about the world, I realize
I’m Overprotected

There must be another way
Cause I believe in taking chances
But who am I to say
What a girl is to do
God I need some answers

What am I to do with my life
(You will find it out don’t worry)
How Am I supposed to know what’s right?
(You just got to do it your way)
I can’t help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

I need time (love)
I need space
(This is it, this is it)

I don’t need nobody’s
Tellin me just what I wanna
What I what what what I’m gonna
Do about my destiny
I Say No, No
Nobody’s telling me just what what what I wanna do, do
I’m so fed up with people telling me to be
Someone else but me

(Action!)

What am I to do with my life
(You will find it out don’t worry)
How Am I supposed to know what’s right?
(You just got to do it your way)
I can’t help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

I don’t need nobody’s
Tellin me just what I wanna
What I what what what I’m gonna
Do about my destiny
I Say No, No
Nobody’s telling me just what I wanna do, do
I’m so fed up with people telling me to be
Someone else but me

What am I to do with my life
(You will find it out don’t worry)
How Am I supposed to know what’s right?
(You just got to do it your way)
I can’t help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected.

-by Britney Spears: Overprotected lyrics

Yet again another “ages” past since my last entry.

Sometimes I feel like I usually blog when I’m unhappy. So I guess you should be saying “not-nice to see you here”? =p just kidding.

Ok, where was I? I’m HOME~! Finally get to make it official on my blog. I’m back in Malaysia – period. I love this place so much man! I still can’t believe I finally transported myself back to the world of above 25 degrees. After those difficult times I had in UK in the cold and so many days of dreaming to be back. I could never appreciate Malaysia more.

Currently I’m working in a small law firm in SS2. I live about 10-15 min walk from my work and every week I’m going to FCC Saturday night service.

At the moment however, I have submitted my resignation letter with one month’s notice to leave the job in end of April. I have decided to take a break for myself in May to really take to time to recuperate from being too stressed out in my current job. (See? Surely I’m somehow unhappy, tat’s y you see me here =p)

 Anyway, this phase I label it as “pre-midlife (as it is not my mid life yet) crisis” from outside point of view. For me, I feel relieved since the day I have decided to leave my job. I feel like this is the opportunity for me to re-discover myself again because right now all I know is I don’t like the nature of legal work.  

Since the day I left Malaysia for UK, I felt like I don’t know myself anymore. I look forward to reconnect with my innerself and find who God has created in me.

God have promised life abundance. I don’t expect a weathy life but at least a happy one.